I came to acknowledge that my people pleaser persona stemmed from a place of 'Love Me', and 'See Me', rather than a GENUINE act of love, where there was no need for any return. I showered people with all of who I was, I swallowed my tears and kept my mouth shut, I went along for the show, whether I wanted to or not. All at the cost of my own peaceful state. And why? Because I wanted more than any of that, to feel loved, to feel needed, to 'belong'. I had let go of any concept of BOUNDARIES, and sold my sense of self, for a false PERCEPTION of what I thought was love.

Would he love me, even though I had to say no? Would he feel sad because of me? Maybe he wouldn't need me anymore? Would he see me? The ever present theme here, was ME! And me, stemmed from ego, and was born from a place that has yet to be fully healed, clearly. The truth was that someone else was able to come through, and my day went on as planned, the way I had chosen, that best served me. So here I am, a self declared people pleaser, and today, after much struggle, I was able to say no, from a place of love, rather than yes from a place of fear. He of course, completely understood, and I was able to SHINE SOME LIGHT on a part of me that needed to come forth to heal.
I have learnt that you must please yourself before anyone else, that you must love yourself, all of you, so that you may bestow that love onto another, from a place of GENUINE JOY AND RADIANCE. There's a presence that comes forth when you GIVE SIMPLY TO GIVE. There's no need for a return, for EXPECTATIONS, because you know you are loved, you know your worth, because you have chosen to value who you are on a soul level, that no amount of people pleasing can add up to.

So, do you put others before yourself? Do you agree even though you know your truth? Do you settle? Do you stay small so others can stay comfortable? And do you do these from a place of love, or from a place of fear? We all have the CHOICE to choose love, and all we need to do IS SHINE that beam of LIGHT and DIVINE energy onto our fears. And eventually those fears heal, and you grow, and LIFE BECOME'S MORE AND MORE BEAUTIFUL EVERY DAY.
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