Rose

There she stood, her heart had been at last, broken open. Cracked, raw, totally shattered. She had always thought a broken heart was means for sorrow, for heartache. What she had learnt, was that once her heart had been broken open, she could see clearly, and the past  had started to shed from the curves of her body, the same way a snake sheds layer upon layer. 

Maybe her heart had always been broken, and maybe all she really needed was an awareness, to be awakened to the constant ache that dwelled WITHIN the playground of her soul.  The constant ache that moved her to look up, to look through the fog. 

Clear eyes, and an open heart that had been full of messy chaos and lessons learnt. She had been cleansed, and she danced as her walls crumbled down all around her. She could have been fearful, she could have been stubborn and she could have chosen to stay small as a bud, too scared to start over, to relearn who she truly was. 

She could have been. But her soul longed to play, to dance, to run amongst the flowers.

And so she rose. 

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THE VIEW THAT AWAITS ME

I am not always sure whether the path I am IS the best one for me. I mean, I do know, but of course my CONDITIONED self would have me BELIEVE another story completely. And I have found that the moment you can actually the energy of your heart's centre open, when you can feel your soul ALIVE WITHIN YOU, ego comes at you full force, naturally, because ego cannot breathe when you breathe from your soul, from your SPIRIT. 

I spent last weekend at THE I CAN DO IT 2014 conference, hosted by Hay House. I was surrounded by some completely wondrous souls, Dr. Wayne Dyer, CAROLINE MYSS, Robert Holden, NANCY LEVIN, Alex Woodard, ANITA MOORJANI, to name a few!! You could say the weekend was BEAUTIFUL, at the very least. 

I have spent most of my LIFE, IN ALL HONESTY, lost. Whether I had been actually aware of that statement or not. I had spent 23 years on a quest to reconnect to myself, to UNVEIL who I was, not the ego PROJECTED IDEAL of who I was, but me, my SPIRIT, at the depths of my core. There has been a lot of ups, and there has been a lot of downs. But here I am, about to celebrate my 25th year, and I now understand why I AM HERE. I now know that to have been lost, was a great GIFT. 

(Takes some REMINDING every now and then!!) I now know that all of those moments that brought me to my knees, well they were the MOUNTAINS I HAD TO CLIMB, so that I would be able to clearly see THE VIEW THAT AWAITED ME. 

Once the conference was over, I knew I had a lot to reflect on, I knew a lot had been brought to the forefront. And what stood out the most, after almost nearly every speaker, was YES. YES to my path, to my Journey, to the MOUNTAINS I HAVE CLIMBED and to the ones I have yet to embark on. THIS was why I am here. Not only to reconnect to myself, to my BEING, my SPIRIT, but to hold the hands of others who walk the same Journey, of those who have found themselves at the bottom of a MOUNTAIN. 

There's a strong BELIEF that we are all separate, that we have to walk alone, or stay WITHIN OUR DESIGNATED CIRCLES. But we are ONE, we are SO INNATELY connected. We all have our own path that has been created for us, but we can walk together, hold one another up, hold each others hands as we RISE from the ashes. We can be each others greatest healers, and soul lovers.

I looked around at all of the people who were there, all ages, male & female, all walks of life really, and yet we all yearned for the same. We all wanted to know we are loved, that we are worthy, that we have a 'spark of god' WITHIN ourselves. So how could we be separate? I knew as I left Vancouver, and made my way back to my humble ISLAND, that I had to honour my FIRE-LIT SPIRIT, that I had to honour the call that has become so very clear WITHIN me, to fearlessly love myself, and all of those I encounter. I may not have always known what the UNIVERSE had IN STORE for me, but my God,  the truth that LIFE IS SO COMPLETELY BEAUTIFUL, feeds a hunger WITHIN MY SOUL. 

Open Your Heart To The Blood Moon

There's a beauty WITHIN you, a LIFE FORCE so very present, that holds the power of the DIVINE. There's a STILLNESS that can ground you, that can open your heart to the coloured sky above you. There's a breathe you can rely on, that can return you to love, to your FIERY soul. Hold close to you, the part of you that knows only peace. Allow yourself to be warmed by the pure essence of who you are, a DIVINE BEING OF LIGHT AND LOVE. 

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Happy Blood Moon everyone!! Always remember to nurture yourselves and allow all of that energy to move through you. Open yourself up to how you feel so you may release what no longer serves you, and so that you may expand your awareness of your truth and your soul's purpose. 

LOVE + LIGHT

Hello, Thank You, and Goodbye

The water fell from the sky. 
I heard her say Hello,Thank you, and goodbye. 
I had searched for so much more than those few words. I had yearned to feel her love, I had hoped for her presence. To merely know we were somehow connected based on more than our blood, for her to see me, even once, even for a moment. 

Hello, Thank you, and goodbye, 
words I have heard all too often. A sense of defeat, a heart on the mend of broken. The softness of those words, I could have allowed them to swallow me whole, and stay oh so small. 

But I choose to see her ,then, now, even though she closes her eyes to me. I choose to see her. She's beauty beyond words, she's a star, and always has been. So strongly protected, so far from her truth, how could she see my soul, when she had turned away from her own. 

Tears had fallen down my face, and caressed my freckled cheeks. Sorrow from my past had become my present, I could be angry, I could feel let down. But what I saw was her sadness. What I saw was her own story. What I felt was love for the wondrous soul who brought me here. 

BE THE LIGHT, was what I heard through the tears. BE THE LIGHT. Open your heart to yourself, open your heart to her. Take down your own walls, see your own soul, and see past the walls she has created. 

Hello, Thank you, and goodbye. Words I had heard all too often, became new to me.  Hello to second chances. Hello to open hearts. Hello to FORGIVENESS and COMPASSION. Thank you to WHISPERS of profound words of love, and Thank you to moments of sorrow, moments so raw they break you open. 

And goodbye. Goodbye to the sad story I have told myself for far too long. Goodbye to the need for you to be anyone other than who you are. A soul, the same as me, on your own Journey of self-love and DISCOVERY. 

BE THE LIGHT, was what I heard through the tears, and so I shall be. FIERCELY, and fearlessly, I shall BE THE LIGHT for you, and for me. Here's to the day, both of our hearts, WILL LIGHT UP THE SKY. 

Namaste

Only Love's Real

Masks, who we feel we are supposed to be, and who everyone else wants us to be. The face we put on to make the rest of the world happy, the perfect person who only feels HAPPINESS. We have all been there, or we know someone who has. I know for me, personally, I have had to really go deep WITHIN myself and accept that I am enough exactly as I am. I have come to a place where I know the only way I can be truly happy, and at harmony's when I am my AUTHENTIC self. What does that mean?

For me, to be my AUTHENTIC self means to accept all parts of me. The good and the bad (or at least what we have been made to see as bad), the LIGHT and the dark. All of the energy and love that flows through me, and all of the sadness and sorrow I have to face so that I may heal. These are all parts of me, and they all make up who I am. The moment I allow myself to accept myself, fully, and completely, then I can allow the energy that does not serve me to pass through. 

I am a VIBRANT soul, a person who dreams of love and knows love can heal us all. A person who feels every EMOTION, and feels most at home when I am at peace WITHIN myself, and when I am surrounded by POSITIVE, wondrous, souls, and loved ones. But I have days when I feel sad, really sad, and days when I feel angry, and scared, and unsure. I know these are all an ILLUSION, that they are not real, because ONLY LOVE'S REAL. I know these EMOTIONS are there for a reason, that I feel them for a reason. To learn from, to accept, and move forward from. We are all a makeup of the energy we feel, and the energy we must release, so that we may grow and blossom. And yet we are taught that we are supposed to have IT ALL TOGETHER always.

Perhaps we are meant to feel, really feel how we feel, and feel the energy that comes up for us, so that we can LOVINGLY love all parts of ourselves, and trust that we are love. 

How can we get to the place of INNER peace and self-acceptance when we are so scared to AUTHENTICALLY be ourselves?

 To be real, completely honest, and own our struggles as much as we own our successes. The moment you accept your struggles, no matter how bad they may seem, as a BEAUTIFUL part of your path to ENLIGHTENMENT then you start to take the shame away. And all those ILLUSIONS that seem to keep us stuck, well they start to fade away more and more. At the end of the day we all go through what we are meant to go through, and the MAGICAL part's that we can take our power back, moment by moment, when accept ourselves fully. When we start to change what we see as good and bad, to STEPPING STONES to our truth, to our love. How can you start to be AUTHENTICALLY you now? Maybe when someone asks you how you feel, be honest, whether you feel truly happy and great, or maybe sad, or you have low energy, maybe that you are HEALING. There's so much beauty that comes from honesty. When we let go of the need to PAINT THE PERFECT PICTURE, and see that we are perfectly IMPERFECT the way that we are. 

Take down the mask, let go of the person you feel you are supposed to be, the person someone wants you to be, and open your  heart to who you are, to the love that you are. There are days we all need rest, days we need a hand to help us through, and then there are days that we SHINE, that our souls RADIATE. Maybe we can learn to accept that together, accept that we are awesome, even when we cannot see past all the other B.S. Accept that when we are AUTHENTICALLY ourselves we learn to truly love ourselves, and when we truly love ourselves, we come back home, come back to that peaceful place where we know and feel that only loves real. 

GRATITUDE + Sundays

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For anyone who knows me, knows that I love Sundays! Sundays have always been the day I look forward to the most. And one of the reasons whys because I allow myself a few moments to myself to reflect. To reflect on the past week and how I feel at that very moment. I ask myself whether I had spent my days fully connected to my truth or whether perhaps I veered off course. And I let go of what had not served me. No matter what, I can always reconnect to my truth through GRATITUDE. 

GRATITUDE, very much saved me the same way FORGIVENESS had. No matter what we go through, we can muster up a few key parts of who we are that we are completely grateful for, and for loved ones and events we are grateful for. I really took to my GRATITUDE PRACTICE when I started my path to self-love, so much so that every day before I went to sleep, I would draught down 5-10 wonders that I was grateful for. So much HEALING and LOVE came from that, because no matter how dark some of those days were, I was able to reconnect to what truly mattered to me. I was able to reconnect to self-love. It has been almost a year and half now and I have stuck to my PRACTICE of GRATITUDE and now, throughout my days,
I MINDFULLY ask myself,

What am I grateful for today?

How can I open my heart even more?

And, Have a shown love and KINDNESS to myself today?

These 3 phrases have helped me tremendously and are key factors to my self-love PRACTICE. These 3 phrases really come to play on Sundays, when -I take to my notebook and drought down what I am grateful for, and moments that stood out to me. Moments that helped me to stay centred and grounded to my true self. So maybe take a few moments for yourself, gather your thoughts on the past week, and let them all go. Release what may have not served you, and send love to what really spoke to you. Choose to see the good, the love, and the LIGHT that's all around you. And perhaps ask yourself what are you grateful for today? Whether one,two, or a hundred moments come to you, know that that's more than okay. You are wonderful, and spectacular, choose to see that. Every day, choose to see the wonder of who you are, and the wonder of all that surrounds you. 

GRATITUDE UNLOCKS THE FULLNESS OF LIFE.

IT TURNS WHAT WE HAVE INTO ENOUGH,AND MORE.

IT TURNS DENIAL INTO ACCEPTANCE,

CHAOS TO ORDER,CONFUSION TO CLARITY.

IT CAN TURN A MEAL INTO A FEAST,A HOUSE INTO A HOME,

A STRANGER INTO A FRIEND. 

MELODY BEATTIE

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Sweet sweet MAGIC

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The truth does not always come to us as we may have IMAGINED. Our paths and our soul's purpose do not always come to us the way we would want them to. PATIENCE, that's the key. Add an open-hearted SPIRIT and the truth always comes. And what makes your soul sparkle flows to you naturally. 

The funny part's that for me, the hardest part's to trust that I know my truth. To trust that I am on the path that has been so BEAUTIFULLY created for me. Ego wants us to create endless amounts of B.S. that only detour us from our truth, from our endless love, from the MAGICAL souls that we are. I do my best to remember to connect to my breath, to really feel my breath as I INHALE, and as I EXHALE. So often we forget to breathe, or at least I know I do. And I mean really breathe the sort of breath that centres you, grounds you,connects you to all that serves you and your purpose of love. The sort of breath that allows you to be MINDFUL. 

Sweet, sweet MAGIC. Breathe that sort of breath. 

Our breath, our truth,our soul's sparkle, our SPIRIT, our true purpose, they are all so completely connected. And I feel as though they all come together so wonderfully the moment we choose to trust. Trust that PRIMAL part of us that knows us better than anyone else ever could,that knows what sets our soul's on FIRE. You know you have felt that when all you want to do's shout out to the world YES,I have found what connects and grounds me to JOY.

A JOY that stems from pure,sacred love. 

I have learnt that for me, personally, PATIENCE can save you. When you let go of the need to force outcomes. When you completely surrender to what the UNIVERSE has planned for you. What GOD has planned for you, whatever GOD means to you. Trust. And TRUST that you have been GUIDED to exactly where you are at THIS VERY MOMENT for a reason. Open you heart and trust. Trust your truth. And as always, breathe. Breathe that sweet,sweet MAGICAL breath. 

The art of FORGIVENESS

It was not that long ago that I truly thought that to FORGIVE someone was weakness on my part, that that somehow reflected onto me as not strong enough. I thought that to forgive someone was for them, that the purpose was to let them off the hook for however you may have felt wronged. 

When I started my Journey, or as the awesome Brene Brown would say, my breakdown spiritual awakening, I learnt that to FORGIVE was about my Inner peace and my peace only. I learnt that the art of forgiveness allowed me the chance to move past LIMITING BELIEFS and become whole. Somewhere along our paths, we start to harness a whole lot of resentment, anger, and overall sorrow. We tend to hold grudges, and replay over and over why we are 'mad' or how awful that person was to us.

If I could go back, I would tell myself to let go, to forgive. To hang on to all that sorrow, you really only hang onto stagnant energy that does not serve you, that actually does a whole lot of harm to you and your soul, to your true essence. 
The art of forgiveness does not let the other person off the hook, you let yourself off the hook. You allow yourself to move forward, to put forth your energy towards your true heart's DESIRES. You bestow upon yourself a MIRACULOUS GIFT.

And the real beauty comes when we choose to surrender to forgiveness, and we actually forgive ourselves, for whatever the reasons may be. That's when the beauty of true self acceptance starts to play, and eventually peace and wholeness starts to dance at our feet. For me, personally, the moment I forgave those I felt had wronged me, so much old energy was released and I had created space for growth, for a fresh start. I took back my power. 

I chose to no longer attach myself to my past. And my sorrow no longer had an RSVP and a plus one to my future. I knew I had a story to tell, and I wanted that story to be my truth,and the only way to my truth was to release all that no longer served me. It has not always been easy, and I have to remember the exact words that I type here day to day. That's why we PRACTICE. 

So, maybe, when you come across an event that would normally cause you to harness anger or sadness or even fear, send love and LIGHT to yourself, and to whomever was apart of the event. Take a deep breathe, and ask yourself whether that energy serves you, whether your peace's worth that resentment. ALL we have to do's be WILLING. Show up, and say to yourself or even out loud, 

I am ready to FORGIVE, I am open to FORGIVENESS, I am at peace. 

Take a deep breathe, and allow your INNER GUIDANCE to take care of you. 

Dear Wondrous Soul

 Dear wondrous soul, the one who knows that love's all you need, who knows we are all one. Allow yourself the chance to be set free. Perhaps, you can allow your soul to expand from all of the corners of who you are. 
Be your truth, allow yourself to be present + allow the FIRE that grows WITHIN you to become the heat source of love that connects us all. Open your heart, dear one, and allow yourself to be fearless. Take that leap, connect to your true self + know above all else, that LOVE always GUIDES us back home. 

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The Answers You Seek

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I have thought long and hard about what my message to the world,about what my soul’s purpose was. I have done my best to force the answers to appear, and even try to control the outcome. What I have found’s that the harder I try to come across these profound answers, the further away they appeared, and the further away I became from my truth.

So I surrendered! I opened my heart up to the my source, and I slowly began to learn to trust. I trusted that the answers I seek would come to me when I was ready for them.

One of the most profound answers that came to me was that I had to truly embrace the unknown and to trust the ebbs and flows of my Journey. The changes are constant, and they are pure beauty. To be able to go through complete sorrow and then come through eyes open, and heart open, that to me’s one of the greatest comforts, almost as though someone has wrapped a warm blanket around you and you completely melt from that comfort, from the safeness you feel.

That warm blanket of comfort, the safeness, and the courage to trust, they came to me through MEDITATION.  

I can honestly say that meditation was one of the key factors that saved me and taught me how to love myself. When I actually allowed myself to relax, and to breathe, I was able to reconnect to my true essence. I was able to reconnect to love. The process was not always easy, and took months to really  allow myself to get to that place.

The hardest steps are usually the ones we know we have to or need to take.

Meditation allowed me to go within, and to connect to who I really am. Meditation opened up the space for me to heal, and to let go what no longer served me. Day to day, I have been able to release fear, and to let go of fear based thoughts and doubts that kept me closed off to my soul’s purpose. That kept me closed off to pure, sacred, love and harmony.

Whether you have never meditated before, or whether you do so regularly, the peace and answers you seek are ready for you the moment you allow yourself to open up to them. So start somewhere, start anywhere, allow yourself to reconnect to your truth, and to come through the fog that fear has created for you.

We can always choose love, and can always choose to heal, no matter what we have been through. We all have a story, and we all can create a story of courage,love and trust.

WHAT YOU SEEK IS SEEKING YOU.  RUMI 

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