Rose

There she stood, her heart had been at last, broken open. Cracked, raw, totally shattered. She had always thought a broken heart was means for sorrow, for heartache. What she had learnt, was that once her heart had been broken open, she could see clearly, and the past  had started to shed from the curves of her body, the same way a snake sheds layer upon layer. 

Maybe her heart had always been broken, and maybe all she really needed was an awareness, to be awakened to the constant ache that dwelled WITHIN the playground of her soul.  The constant ache that moved her to look up, to look through the fog. 

Clear eyes, and an open heart that had been full of messy chaos and lessons learnt. She had been cleansed, and she danced as her walls crumbled down all around her. She could have been fearful, she could have been stubborn and she could have chosen to stay small as a bud, too scared to start over, to relearn who she truly was. 

She could have been. But her soul longed to play, to dance, to run amongst the flowers.

And so she rose. 

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THE VIEW THAT AWAITS ME

I am not always sure whether the path I am IS the best one for me. I mean, I do know, but of course my CONDITIONED self would have me BELIEVE another story completely. And I have found that the moment you can actually the energy of your heart's centre open, when you can feel your soul ALIVE WITHIN YOU, ego comes at you full force, naturally, because ego cannot breathe when you breathe from your soul, from your SPIRIT. 

I spent last weekend at THE I CAN DO IT 2014 conference, hosted by Hay House. I was surrounded by some completely wondrous souls, Dr. Wayne Dyer, CAROLINE MYSS, Robert Holden, NANCY LEVIN, Alex Woodard, ANITA MOORJANI, to name a few!! You could say the weekend was BEAUTIFUL, at the very least. 

I have spent most of my LIFE, IN ALL HONESTY, lost. Whether I had been actually aware of that statement or not. I had spent 23 years on a quest to reconnect to myself, to UNVEIL who I was, not the ego PROJECTED IDEAL of who I was, but me, my SPIRIT, at the depths of my core. There has been a lot of ups, and there has been a lot of downs. But here I am, about to celebrate my 25th year, and I now understand why I AM HERE. I now know that to have been lost, was a great GIFT. 

(Takes some REMINDING every now and then!!) I now know that all of those moments that brought me to my knees, well they were the MOUNTAINS I HAD TO CLIMB, so that I would be able to clearly see THE VIEW THAT AWAITED ME. 

Once the conference was over, I knew I had a lot to reflect on, I knew a lot had been brought to the forefront. And what stood out the most, after almost nearly every speaker, was YES. YES to my path, to my Journey, to the MOUNTAINS I HAVE CLIMBED and to the ones I have yet to embark on. THIS was why I am here. Not only to reconnect to myself, to my BEING, my SPIRIT, but to hold the hands of others who walk the same Journey, of those who have found themselves at the bottom of a MOUNTAIN. 

There's a strong BELIEF that we are all separate, that we have to walk alone, or stay WITHIN OUR DESIGNATED CIRCLES. But we are ONE, we are SO INNATELY connected. We all have our own path that has been created for us, but we can walk together, hold one another up, hold each others hands as we RISE from the ashes. We can be each others greatest healers, and soul lovers.

I looked around at all of the people who were there, all ages, male & female, all walks of life really, and yet we all yearned for the same. We all wanted to know we are loved, that we are worthy, that we have a 'spark of god' WITHIN ourselves. So how could we be separate? I knew as I left Vancouver, and made my way back to my humble ISLAND, that I had to honour my FIRE-LIT SPIRIT, that I had to honour the call that has become so very clear WITHIN me, to fearlessly love myself, and all of those I encounter. I may not have always known what the UNIVERSE had IN STORE for me, but my God,  the truth that LIFE IS SO COMPLETELY BEAUTIFUL, feeds a hunger WITHIN MY SOUL. 

Open Your Heart To The Blood Moon

There's a beauty WITHIN you, a LIFE FORCE so very present, that holds the power of the DIVINE. There's a STILLNESS that can ground you, that can open your heart to the coloured sky above you. There's a breathe you can rely on, that can return you to love, to your FIERY soul. Hold close to you, the part of you that knows only peace. Allow yourself to be warmed by the pure essence of who you are, a DIVINE BEING OF LIGHT AND LOVE. 

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Happy Blood Moon everyone!! Always remember to nurture yourselves and allow all of that energy to move through you. Open yourself up to how you feel so you may release what no longer serves you, and so that you may expand your awareness of your truth and your soul's purpose. 

LOVE + LIGHT

And Do You Dance?!

What's beneath your surface?! Can you sense that there's a depth to you, a depth so profound, so deep WITHIN, that you have often forgotten the very presence of your soul's FIRE? What LIGHTS you up and causes your heart to explode from complete and utter PASSION and DIVINE energy? That DIVINE energy that courses through your body at every 'awakened' moment. Who are you?! And what do you stand for?! 

What's the essence of the courage that moves you to dance along the waves of your dreams?! And do you dance?! Do you honour your body and the way you yearn to move?! Do you watch your soul SISTERS and brothers from afar as they play amongst the Ocean's JOY? And do you wonder why you have yet to feel the art of surrender?! Why you have yet to feel worthy to play amongst them? Worthy to let go, to dance, to connect, to rest, and to laugh. Do you?

What's the part of you that wants to keep you small? To play safe, to dream small, to settle, to close the door on your truth, on your soul's cry for FREEDOM, and throw the key away? Where does that come from, and how does that make you feel? Can you feel that? The way your breath shortens and your heart burns? Can you locate the part of you that sabotages your true self, and your DIVINE presence?

What's beneath the surface? What's down deep, WITHIN your depths? The answers to who are you, and what do you stand for, they are located WITHIN those depths of your BEING, and can be accessed at any moment. The moment you make a CONSCIOUS CHOICE to say YES TO JOY.

Are you ready to go deep? To actually get to know yourself, who you are the very core of your soul, and to lay down, and get DIRTY, to learn what you stand for? Because once you do, you'll look around and see yourself through brand new eyes, the world through brand new eyes, and what you used to see as dull, now has an ever present sparkle that you cannot deny. When you choose to go beneath the surface, shadow work as some would say, you unleash the very truth of who you are, love. And once you have unleashed love, your soul's FIRE can soar, and you may very well come to hold the very answers you seek. So, who are YOU? And what exactly do you stand for?

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SPRING.. A lullaby of hope

I knew my path was about to change, that I was about to change. That one chapter was about to close, and a new, about to gently start. Warm, and gold sun rays had touched my body, so gently, FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MONTHS. I could hear the waves ahead of me, the ebb and flow of the salty water, WHISPERING A LULLABY OF HOPE. 

THE WIND KISSED MY SKIN AND I SOMEHOW FELT RENEWED.There was an energy all around me, that told me to trust. To feel deeply. To move as the DAFFODILS had when they began to bloom. After a cold,damp, Winter, those spectacular flowers somehow trusted the process of Mother Nature, and knew they would blossom once more. And I wondered, did those DAFFODILS radiate a touch more after every bloom? More and more colourful, peaceful, and open, ready to share all of the beauty and glory that nature had bestowed upon them. I now understood that so many key lessons were all around me, once I chose to see them, once I opened my eyes to the love that was all around me, around all of us. 

And I thought to myself, perhaps one must lose the ground they walk upon, so they may bloom fully, and completely. Maybe, one must reflect, and go deep WITHIN, as the darker days of WINTER'S cold unfolds, and then return as the flowers would, blossomed and full of love. READY TO PROSPER AND DANCE WITH ABUNDANCE. 

WITH renewed hearts and souls, and a welcome to SPRING, may we be GUIDED forward. May we dance and play amongst the ever present beauty that nature has once more unfolded before our eyes. 

SHIT AIN'T EASY

We all have those moments, the ones that take us aback. I have them more often than not. I have come to understand that once you have awakened, there's nowhere to go back to. You cannot go back to sleep so to speak, or close your eyes to the truth all around you, to your soul, to your purpose. At least that has been my own story.

To be 'awakened' does not mean you are free from fear, or free of sorrow, for me anyways. I am only HIGHLY aware now of my fear, and of my sorrow. To be that aware of how you feel, to be the one who now observes your fear, your old thought patterns, does not always come easy. There are days that are naturally really hard. I have come across many blogs, many awesome teachers, and sources of self-love Journeys and the art of HEALING, but to be completely honest, I get a sense that they are not all that honest. I have found that a lot of people portray a perfect path, and only half of the truth that brought them to that place of love. If you are here, and you were GUIDED here for some reason, there's a good chance that you know exactly what I mean. 

This journey we are on, the one of self-awareness, self-love, MINDFULNESS, and HEALING, well, SHIT AIN'T EASY, to be completely frank. Oh I could talk days about the RESISTANCE that comes up when you walk forward to a place of Inner Peace. How the moment you feel as though you totally know what's up now, there's a whole new lesson for you to learn, and those lessons can knock you down, that's for sure. But we get back up, we do, but I have found that not everyone talks about that part, the part where we fall down. Where ego catches us off guard, where we feel small, or when we wonder when we'll get past the 'hard' part. 

Everyone has a story of there own, and maybe we do not all feel the need to share the parts of ourselves we are not so proud of, but I want to, as vulnerable as that makes me feel. Yes, I could totally go on and on about how perfect my path has been, how every day I feel so connected and groovy, and how the world comes easy to me now, but that would not be my truth. And I am not sure I could really serve anyone or even myself from a place that's not fully AUTHENTIC. 

So, to the moments that take us aback. Well, today was full of those sort of moments for me. Self-doubt came to play, and self-love took a seat on the bench. You see, I have a lot of dreams, I am a huge dreamer, and a heart so full of love to share, and when I am grounded, I know I am worthy of all of those dreams and more. However, when I am not grounded, when for whatever reason I feel off, ego pulls out the most fearful parts of me. The parts of me that I open myself up to heal everyday. The part of me that's beyond scared to fully go after my dreams, to fully put myself out there, to be seen. 

Today was not a bad day, nor would I say today was a good day. Today was exactly what I chose today to be when I really look closely. Why was I so hard on myself today? On my appearance, on my path, on my Inner CHILD? Because I had lessons I needed to learn. There's always a lesson to learn. And that's how we grow. That's how we become the heroes of our own story. That's how change takes place. Change does not happen because every day's perfect, or because we put on a mask to cover up the parts of us we don't want others to see. Change comes when we choose to be fearless, even when we are fearful. 

Maybe you have moments that come up for you, that make you doubt yourself, that make you doubt the path that you are on. The only words I have for you, are to TRUST. Trust what the UNIVERSE has planned for you, what your God has planned for you. And I understand that that's not always easy, I fully understand that, but when you choose to trust the lessons that have been brought your way, there's usually a sense of support you'll feel all around you, a presence, an energy, that wants to help you flow as effortlessly through the lessons as you can. Ego and our need to control are usually what makes us struggle the way we do. So, TRUST. Trust yourself, SOURCE, angels, Mother Nature, love, and TRUST that you are exactly where you are supposed to be, even when you cannot understand why. 

Peace + Love

For an awesome post about detachment and Trust, check out KRISTIN HEDGES blog post here!! Her words helped me a lot today!! 

To Ground Oneself

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We LIVE IN A WORLD that's so consumed by a false sense of Freedom, a false sense of peace. A world that teaches us to look OUTSIDE of ourselves, when the only way to true freedom and peace IS WITHIN. I spent so many years on AUTO-PILOT, and though there were moments of CLARITY, I had not even been grounded WITHIN my body, not even really connected to my soul. Sounds so surreal to me now as I reflect on where I have been and on where I am. When started my Journey to self-love, and my SPIRITUAL AWAKENING, I went and sought a hand to help me through the darker of days, to help me come bacK to my heart and my truth. That hand that the UNIVERSE so perfectly connected me to, was the hand of a man, who has changed me, completely and fully. That man's now someone I am happy to call a dear FRIEND, and truly, my GUIDE, and one of the only teachers I feel taught me matters that well, matter. 

That man, my own personal guru so to speak, taught me many, many lessons. But the one lesson he taught me that I go back to over and over, was to be GROUNDED. I remember the very first day I went and sat down across from my dear FRIEND, and he told me I was not grounded. That I was not presently connected to my truth, and that I was so scared of the present space I had created, that my soul had fled for help. Grounded. To ground oneself. I can honestly say I had never heard the term or even the concept to be grounded, ever, until that day, when he spoke those beautiful words. They changed me, and they continue to change me every day. 

How could I fully LIVE, how could I fully be present, when my soul's not fully connected to my heart, to my body, my TEMPLE, my LIGHT? To ground oneselfs to be blanketed by a handmade quilt of peace, a peace that takes you back to what's real, and allows you to see past fear, see past ILLUSION. 

When I started to fully understand the grandness of the art of being grounded, I was able to focus on what really mattered to me, and I was able to release all of those STORIES we create that never really serve us. As all paths go, yoga, MINDFULNESS,the way we eat, how we create, to learn to be grounded takes PRACTICE. A CONSCIOUS CHOICE you make every day to be grounded, and maybe even moments, an hour here or there. Trust me, when you have been ungrounded for years, a few hours of pure grounded BLISS feels more than enough to start. I now know that every moment I am stressed, or upset, or have created my own sense of chaos, that I am not grounded. There's so much power that comes once you are aware of that, once you know there's a better way, a spectacular,EUPHORIC way. 

So maybe ask yourself, do you feel grounded? Do you feel connected to your souls core purpose, to your heart, and do you feel yourself apart of every ounce of your body, your TEMPLE? Subtle changes, every day, every moment, can completely change the way you see yourself, see your world, and how you connect to both. 

A few ways I love to ground myself are

~ A long walk outdoors, surrounded by nature and my loved ones, or some days alone. 

~ A good hug of a TREE. No really, I hug TREES more often than not.Totally recommend. 

~A barefoot stroll on grass,a sandy beach by the ocean, Feel your body connect to Mother Earth. 

~ Yoga, of course, grounds me to my very core. 

~ MEDITATION, whether you have a few spare moments or an hour, take what you can. 

~ A hot,steamy bath full of Epsom salts and ESSENTIAL OILS. 

~ Have FUN, play, be goofy, and connect to yourself and your loved ones. 

~ Journal,blog, create, however you create, there's total BLISS that comes from that, and you can connect to your heart completely. 

~ Prayer

~ And above all else, breathe you wondrous soul!!

That man I sat across from that day, that open-hearted soul, taught me one of the most valuable lessons I have ever been taught, and I am FOREVER GRATEFUL for the love and KINDNESS he bestowed upon me that day, and every other we have spent UNRAVELLING who I thought I was, and who I thought I had to be. He has helped me every step of the way, to reconnect to my HIGHER self, to my goddess WITHIN. And I hope these words, the concept to ground yourself, to connect to your breathe and your body, serves you and can maybe allow you to connect to your Inner Goddess as well. 

Peace + Love 

GRATITUDE + Sundays

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For anyone who knows me, knows that I love Sundays! Sundays have always been the day I look forward to the most. And one of the reasons whys because I allow myself a few moments to myself to reflect. To reflect on the past week and how I feel at that very moment. I ask myself whether I had spent my days fully connected to my truth or whether perhaps I veered off course. And I let go of what had not served me. No matter what, I can always reconnect to my truth through GRATITUDE. 

GRATITUDE, very much saved me the same way FORGIVENESS had. No matter what we go through, we can muster up a few key parts of who we are that we are completely grateful for, and for loved ones and events we are grateful for. I really took to my GRATITUDE PRACTICE when I started my path to self-love, so much so that every day before I went to sleep, I would draught down 5-10 wonders that I was grateful for. So much HEALING and LOVE came from that, because no matter how dark some of those days were, I was able to reconnect to what truly mattered to me. I was able to reconnect to self-love. It has been almost a year and half now and I have stuck to my PRACTICE of GRATITUDE and now, throughout my days,
I MINDFULLY ask myself,

What am I grateful for today?

How can I open my heart even more?

And, Have a shown love and KINDNESS to myself today?

These 3 phrases have helped me tremendously and are key factors to my self-love PRACTICE. These 3 phrases really come to play on Sundays, when -I take to my notebook and drought down what I am grateful for, and moments that stood out to me. Moments that helped me to stay centred and grounded to my true self. So maybe take a few moments for yourself, gather your thoughts on the past week, and let them all go. Release what may have not served you, and send love to what really spoke to you. Choose to see the good, the love, and the LIGHT that's all around you. And perhaps ask yourself what are you grateful for today? Whether one,two, or a hundred moments come to you, know that that's more than okay. You are wonderful, and spectacular, choose to see that. Every day, choose to see the wonder of who you are, and the wonder of all that surrounds you. 

GRATITUDE UNLOCKS THE FULLNESS OF LIFE.

IT TURNS WHAT WE HAVE INTO ENOUGH,AND MORE.

IT TURNS DENIAL INTO ACCEPTANCE,

CHAOS TO ORDER,CONFUSION TO CLARITY.

IT CAN TURN A MEAL INTO A FEAST,A HOUSE INTO A HOME,

A STRANGER INTO A FRIEND. 

MELODY BEATTIE

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Sweet sweet MAGIC

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The truth does not always come to us as we may have IMAGINED. Our paths and our soul's purpose do not always come to us the way we would want them to. PATIENCE, that's the key. Add an open-hearted SPIRIT and the truth always comes. And what makes your soul sparkle flows to you naturally. 

The funny part's that for me, the hardest part's to trust that I know my truth. To trust that I am on the path that has been so BEAUTIFULLY created for me. Ego wants us to create endless amounts of B.S. that only detour us from our truth, from our endless love, from the MAGICAL souls that we are. I do my best to remember to connect to my breath, to really feel my breath as I INHALE, and as I EXHALE. So often we forget to breathe, or at least I know I do. And I mean really breathe the sort of breath that centres you, grounds you,connects you to all that serves you and your purpose of love. The sort of breath that allows you to be MINDFUL. 

Sweet, sweet MAGIC. Breathe that sort of breath. 

Our breath, our truth,our soul's sparkle, our SPIRIT, our true purpose, they are all so completely connected. And I feel as though they all come together so wonderfully the moment we choose to trust. Trust that PRIMAL part of us that knows us better than anyone else ever could,that knows what sets our soul's on FIRE. You know you have felt that when all you want to do's shout out to the world YES,I have found what connects and grounds me to JOY.

A JOY that stems from pure,sacred love. 

I have learnt that for me, personally, PATIENCE can save you. When you let go of the need to force outcomes. When you completely surrender to what the UNIVERSE has planned for you. What GOD has planned for you, whatever GOD means to you. Trust. And TRUST that you have been GUIDED to exactly where you are at THIS VERY MOMENT for a reason. Open you heart and trust. Trust your truth. And as always, breathe. Breathe that sweet,sweet MAGICAL breath. 

The art of FORGIVENESS

It was not that long ago that I truly thought that to FORGIVE someone was weakness on my part, that that somehow reflected onto me as not strong enough. I thought that to forgive someone was for them, that the purpose was to let them off the hook for however you may have felt wronged. 

When I started my Journey, or as the awesome Brene Brown would say, my breakdown spiritual awakening, I learnt that to FORGIVE was about my Inner peace and my peace only. I learnt that the art of forgiveness allowed me the chance to move past LIMITING BELIEFS and become whole. Somewhere along our paths, we start to harness a whole lot of resentment, anger, and overall sorrow. We tend to hold grudges, and replay over and over why we are 'mad' or how awful that person was to us.

If I could go back, I would tell myself to let go, to forgive. To hang on to all that sorrow, you really only hang onto stagnant energy that does not serve you, that actually does a whole lot of harm to you and your soul, to your true essence. 
The art of forgiveness does not let the other person off the hook, you let yourself off the hook. You allow yourself to move forward, to put forth your energy towards your true heart's DESIRES. You bestow upon yourself a MIRACULOUS GIFT.

And the real beauty comes when we choose to surrender to forgiveness, and we actually forgive ourselves, for whatever the reasons may be. That's when the beauty of true self acceptance starts to play, and eventually peace and wholeness starts to dance at our feet. For me, personally, the moment I forgave those I felt had wronged me, so much old energy was released and I had created space for growth, for a fresh start. I took back my power. 

I chose to no longer attach myself to my past. And my sorrow no longer had an RSVP and a plus one to my future. I knew I had a story to tell, and I wanted that story to be my truth,and the only way to my truth was to release all that no longer served me. It has not always been easy, and I have to remember the exact words that I type here day to day. That's why we PRACTICE. 

So, maybe, when you come across an event that would normally cause you to harness anger or sadness or even fear, send love and LIGHT to yourself, and to whomever was apart of the event. Take a deep breathe, and ask yourself whether that energy serves you, whether your peace's worth that resentment. ALL we have to do's be WILLING. Show up, and say to yourself or even out loud, 

I am ready to FORGIVE, I am open to FORGIVENESS, I am at peace. 

Take a deep breathe, and allow your INNER GUIDANCE to take care of you. 

Dear Wondrous Soul

 Dear wondrous soul, the one who knows that love's all you need, who knows we are all one. Allow yourself the chance to be set free. Perhaps, you can allow your soul to expand from all of the corners of who you are. 
Be your truth, allow yourself to be present + allow the FIRE that grows WITHIN you to become the heat source of love that connects us all. Open your heart, dear one, and allow yourself to be fearless. Take that leap, connect to your true self + know above all else, that LOVE always GUIDES us back home. 

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